I know i''ve done mistakes that are unforgiven to normal people.
I know what situation i'm in now.
You need not to tell me. I know i've been ignoring you for the past weeks.
I need my own space. Like i say, we're are too different.
You and me are totaly aliens.

My life last time was not like this dear. I didn't even know this shits.
Even smloking, do you know that?
When i was in Sec 3, Nadiah and Haq smoke infront of me,
" Eh korang aku tak nak kawan dengan korang! " just because they were smoking.
I even adviced Nadiah at that point of time and they're were laughing at me!
Maybe is because i was soooo innocent i guess.
You even know that when we overnight together. I didn't smoke nor drink.

People change dear. You have changed but i think you didn't realised it.
People change because of influence, friends, situation.
I did change, i can't deny, because of influence.
There's alot of things you don't know about me now.
If i do tell you, you be hating me to the core right this moment.
Things that you didn't think i would do, i did.
Alot..................... Even me myself couldn't possibly believe it.
I just couldn't bring myself telling you stuffs because i love you.
And also i didn't want to hurt you.
Wrong mixture of freinds leads me to this shits, this life.
I can't turn back now, it's too late. they're the only friends i have.
You know since i was in primary school people hates me.
I just couldn't find the reason why, why they're hating me!
All my life i was alone most of the time.
All my life i tried to find new circle of friends, blending in with them.
That's what i've been doing. People have been making use of me.
Do you know that. they took advantage my kindness.

Now i say to you, that i am really one stupid ass. I am.
I'm sorry i didn't listen to you, i'm sorry i've been hurting you.
In my mind i just want freedom, freedom from things that makes me think.
I want to get out from reality and live in my own fairy tales.
They introduced me to it and i kinda like it.
But at the same time it's kinda dangerous.
I'm in dilemma myself dear. donn't know what to do.
I'm stuck. I wanna change but how? How?
I realised that i'm not like this last time.
When the first time i met you, i was still innocent.
That's my situation. My life i'm facing now.
How i wish i can reborn into a new person and start a new life.

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